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HI FRIENDS I IS IN PHUKET NOW :D it's 12:19am and I am damnnnnn tired but the villa is awesome (: there is Wifi HURRAY FOR WIFI I can blog heh heh. My lenses are in already and the background noise of Zombieland is booming I will never be able to sleep at this rate and hence I am dropping by to say hi :D
Going shopping tmr I thinkkkkkk got factory outlet I hope there are nice dri-fit shirts.

Okay my brain is refusing to function byeeeeeeee

Friends I miss yall <3

This is pretty good :D:D

THIS IS AWESOME :D:D

PROM TMR AH EXCITING THEN IT'S LEAGUE ON SUNDAY THEN IT'S OFF TO PHUKET OMMGGGGG SO TIRING BUT SO EXCITING CAN'T WAIT FOR A GOOD GOOD GOOD BREAK (: (: (: (:

<3 sorry havent been writing much, have too much going on lately to sit down and write a proper post. In any case, it's awesome that A levels are TOTALLY OVER NOW (: (: CONGRATS FRIENDSSSS WE HAVE MADE IT THROUGH <3
I am so tired been up since 7 this morning and it's already 1:20am AHHHH byeee blog when I'm in phuket hopefully (: (:

I am so tired ): ): been sneezing my head off today not good not good at all I am going to fall sick x.X
Today I cried while thinking of you. Good job, michelle.
Alright I totally need an early night. Good job to those who've finished As already OR HAVE TEN DAYS TO STUDY FOR BIO MCQ THE END IS NEARRRR :D:D

I am dinosaur, hear me RAWRRRR (:

Today was a good day!
PLAYED SQUASH YAYYYYY
Am tired now need to mug lit tmr ahhh. Night (:

Lately places have been reminding me of people, and past memories.
Gave myself a little time while to remember you, and how the last time up there was with you, &on a rainy day too.
Give myself time here and there during the day, and in conversations with people, to remember how it felt like with you, once; when it first started. How I was sure you were going to be the one (but now I am not sure, anymore).
Give myself time to think about how to work things out, how I am going to face life again without having the pathetic excuse that is the As to run away from things. Now I will need to face them squarely in the face and let things hit me again probably altogether around the same time too. But I will face them to the best that I can and rely on the tower of refuge that is omnipotent and omnipresent and who will never fail, because He has been with me all this while, even through my heartache and despair. He is there, always there, and I know that even when all else fails He is going to be there.
Thought abit about rg today; about how life was alot less complicated in rg. Quite hard to put into words what it felt like first coming into rj; but despite all my regret about rj and all, it was, and is, still, the place to be. I will hold to it in faith that I am here for a reason - to meet people, to cry over certain things and to learn lessons in life (about moving on, about loving - and discovering that I possibly and probably don't know what the word means) and that it is part of God's Life Plan for me.

I am scared. So damn scared. I am scared that I will lose the people who matter the most to me, I am scared that people whom I used to be close to will vanish from my life and leave me with this sense of regret that will probably never leave me for years to come (like I still regret about you, even though you will not see this and you will not realize, even if you one-in-a-million-chance across this, that this is about you)
I am damn scared about what is to come after As; most people can play and cease to worry about anything after As (SATs and Uni Apps do not count, damnit) but I am so damn scared. This has been the toughest year of my life (excluding the last month of 2007) &I really don't need anymore things to go wrong. But I think, I hope, that at the end of this year I will be able to enjoy New Year's Eve, and countdown with people I love to the new year - new start, new beginning, and abandon old baggages and anger and resentment and disappointments and start over, and find the path I want to take.

So here's to life, because life is too short to spend all day being unhappy, too short to regret about things already done and mistakes that have been committed&are now irreversible. So here's to tomorrow and everything that will come, life is too short and too fragile to worry about what you cannot change.
<3 come on friends, let's go.

Do you believe that people come into your life for a reason? So do they leave when that reason becomes irrelevant, or does leaving have justification of its own?

-from Cat's blog. (HI CAT I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND ME KOPING THIS OFF YOUR BLOG :D)

This is lousy MY BRAIN IS SCREAMING FOR ME TO GO BACK TO MATH bye

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can't turn to you when it all falls apart
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Wtf the detailed summary of The great Gastby is on Wikipedia.
Why do I even bother sitting through lessons annotating the damn book, tell me.

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After a While

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn.

Veronica A. Shoffstall

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This gives me strength every single time I read it.
Company doesn't always mean security - I hope you realize that. That you in yourself being around, being there -whatever there is supposed to mean- doesn't give me security.

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Two weeks, I will hang in there till then.

You still make me sad, you do. I don't know what I did to make you mad at me so often, but I would really like it if you told me why you are hardly speaking to me nowadays even when I see you around, even when you are seemingly in a good mood. I miss talking to you, you are so far away now and I can feel a slight resentment but I don't know why, and it makes me sad. Yknow, even though as far as I know I didn't do anything to make you mad at me, I didn't do anything to you, you are still mad at me and it bewilders me.

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On another note! I finally uploaded SOME photos from my cam :D after a nong, nong time.




"Raffles Ultimate has taught me to love a team again, taught me to fight for something I love, something I want to do well in, after the disheartenment of squash; frisbee taught me to run again, to fall down and cry and then pick myself up and keep going. It's taught me to hope again, most of all."

FOR THE AWESOMEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!!!! :D

Jiayou for As people <3<3